I've been rereading Tom Robbin's _Even Cowgirls Get the Blues_. I came across an idea that explains nicely why I do things differently. Here's my personal interpretation.
I'm not different because I want to stand out. I'm not different because I want attention or to be noticed. I'm just like everyone else. I'm a human. I breathe air. I live. I do things differently because their are many things that need to be expressed. There are plenty of people expressing popular and "mainstream" things. The expression capacity of those experiences is fairly full, and more people will do those popular and mainstream things because they are accessible and often appropriated as an acceptable thing to do/express.
I remember thinking to myself 15+ years ago (when I was 15) that even the nonconformists conform to a predefined notion of nonconformity. Generally speaking, nonconformists are not original in their nonconformity.
I do things differently because I see activities and perceptions and experiences that have a need to be expressed, experienced. And I see few people expressing/experiences these items. Because I pay attention to the world I live in, I have noticed these things. This gives me the opportunity to choose to express mainstream/popular items or pay attention to these lesser noticed experiences and expressions.
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